Wednesday, June 30, 2010

caution: dreams defered may become unstable

In my high school creative writing class, we studied the Harlem Renaissance.  And thus I was first introduced to the poet Langston Hughes.  I really liked his poems and few of them have stuck with me through the years.  Today the word of this poem came to mind as I pondered some of my hopes and dreams that are continually out of reach. 

Dream Deferred

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
Like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore--
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over--
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?

- Langston Hughes

Maybe there's a spot at Yucca Mountain for all these dreams I keep carrying around.  (You know, if that nuclear waste deal doesn't go down.  I am in no way suggesting or condoning the storage of volatile explosives with nuclear waste.)

Monday, June 21, 2010

in the land of the mid-night sun

Happy Summer Solstice everyone!

I'm all sorts of excited for summer AND that it's going to start getting dark again.  I don't mean to be a hater, but all this sunlight is messing with my circadian rhythm and this lack of sleep is catching up with me.  I am dragging today (and a sorta strung out on diet coke).

So I was successful in getting myself out of the house this weekend. Maybe a little too successful....  But here in Fairbanks, solstice is a big deal and I have to live it up because this is my chance to experience the Midnight Sun festivities. 

Saturday, June 19, 2010


Goal for tomorrow (actually technically today): get out of the house. 

Since I got back from my vacation last Saturday night, I have been a total home body.  Not that there is anything wrong with that, but it's time I got out a bit.  So tomorrow, I will force myself to go to the gym and use that membership for which I pay so dearly.  I will go to the farmers market - and buy something (maybe another plant).  Maybe I'll even make an effort to be social and call up a friend, but let's not get carried away.   

Most importantly, I will NOT spend the day in bed or in my pajamas.  

But right now, I think that I'll go hang some blankets over my windows and try and get a little sleep before the sun comes up any minute now.