I'm back in Utah again and I'm not sure exactly how I feel about it. Returning home is always bitter sweet. I love hanging out with my Mom and my sisters, working on projects and family dinners. Yet I am also confronted by harsh reality that my family has changed and I have changed and I don't quite know how I fit in here. I have recently come to the conclusion that I get along with my family a lot better when we don't live in the same state. It is a sad reality but I have gotten so used to having my own space that I find that I don't really play well with others. Turns out, I can be really mean to those I love - and I hate that about myself.
Alaska feels so far away, like it was only a dream. I do miss it and the great friends that I met there (I do hope our paths cross again). But it was time to move on - to new things - new people to meet - new places to explore.